06.08.08

Folk Poem I: I Am A Fool

Posted in Life, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 10:26 pm by AR

I am a fool
And I know why:
I was born under
A bronze, bronze sky
A mewling bird
Fell from its nest,
And died within
My mothers’ breast.

A warring girl
With bronze, bronze hair
Called to the wind
But none was there;
Spoke to the grave
With no reply
Then something gave
In her bronze, bronze eye.

O come with me
Who on the earth
Creep haltingly
Twixt death and birth
O come with me
All you who long
For more to be
Than fair and strong.

And you who crave
For other worlds
Beyond this world
And every world
We shall mourn sore
What death has sown
And stand up more
Than men have known.

Tune base: O Waly Waly (The Water Is Wide)

06.04.08

Poem XX: Willoware Land

Posted in Poems, Stories tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 4:17 pm by AR

From Claude Monet's

Passing into the Willow Ware
Is something I don’t often dare;
But when I arrive in Willowareland
I always wield a ready hand.

O sacred shallows, brittle sight;
The shores of Willowareland by night!

Decide to vanquish a Willoware Dragon,
In quest of the fabled Willoware Flagon;
Then out upon you come the cries
Of the Willoware Boy to him who tries.
“Rally from foliage; Rally to blue;
Cheer him on by the Light of Lue!
Give him one, two three four five;
Give him one last laugh alive!”

Then you advance with prickling spear;
With sickling gut do you go near
Over the bone-white sands you tread,
Over blue bones of trees that are dead
(Things you can’t see from the cupboard door
But once in that land, emerge galore!)
And there, behind the blue willow tree,
One little tooth sticks out, you see.
Your mama thinks it is a leaf;
Your mama, sadly, lacks belief.
It is a dragon, well you know,
for now appears the dust-blue foe!

His head sinks down with a dreadful sway,
All glimmery-glare in the Willoware way;
He rears along with smokey-blue breath
And you think of Jane, but not of death,
Lying on fallen blue and white leaves
And spearing his passing flanks, like eaves.

Still, the outcome is quite a surprise,
For no one in Willowareland ever dies
(That’s why the Willoware Boy only cries
Not to the winner, but him who tries.)
So with hoary white gasps you battle hard
With slim white arms raised upon the blue sward;
But you’ll sit down when the ladies have come
Out of the willowware they are from;

Four Ladies come in a milk-white wagon,
To sit with you boys and the Willoware Dragon
Drinking blue tea from the Willoware Flagon.

This is the stuff of my childhood - I read this kind of thing because my Mother collected old books. I can rattle it off in minutes but I’m aware that today’s child would be expected to find it boring and most likely would actually do so unless introduced to it early. I make it for delight purely.

05.22.08

Poem XIX: Holly Healing

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 7:42 pm by AR

Below is the ninth and final poem in the Holly Brightweed cycle.

I have a steady, heady lust for light.
I breathe (what time of day
the light goes gray)
sharp sheen of coming night;
Drink the whitened brilliance
in which late-night shoppers swim,
and chase those glows that kindle dim,
through Juney velvet fields, their bobbing dance.

Wild for moon, I will
wait in a wintry midnight, till
strange silver spills down white
bare trees. O languid light!

And laughing light! That in the summer plays
caprice upon the surface of the lakes -
an early gray soon sparkles red;
glows moreover into gold
that gilds a wavelet’s gliding bed;
gloats on, overbold,
the shimmering love of dragonflies and drakes;

then through our bed-side window breaks;
fills the ivory cup my husband’s brown throat makes,
anoints the sleeping wealth I hold:
this bronze-curled, christly head.

I know that I will go and gaze in after days
upon That Light from which, a torched flower,
our sun outwent.

Then, at last, shall I bow down. And rise again
to stand, myself enblazed, and look, how long!
and lust content -

05.12.08

Poem XVI: Holly Brightweed, Second Narrative

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , at 10:09 am by AR

Holly Brightweed and her willing beau
unspeaking wandered on the shaggy ridge
that topped her father’s strip of land
much like the tooth-torn cartilage
of a dog’s well-loved and well-gnawed bone.

For feathered weeds, mostly dead,
were mashed and crashed
through hollow and head -
all colorless, or brown, or sickly green.
Holly said it was the scene
she found the saddest all year round.

“Spring was mother-mud” she said, “until
a green mist rose up from the dale
and crept of a morning up this hill.
Green and golden days swung by
all the glancing, dancing summer.
In early fall we chased winged creatures
turned to flightlight, you remember -
everything glowed more to gold.
Now this.” She stopped and crushed
a withered leaf. They both stood still
to hear the land. The air was hushed,
harvest over, few birds left,
insects dead. “Winter’s near:”
she mourned. “The wide world seems to wait.”

Richard Healing thought her voice held fear.
He said, “But Winter’s fair.” Richard’s speech
was cheerful, even musical, like wind:
“Something in you loves the cold and white.”

Holly winced as though he sinned.

“Cold is fire inside-out” she said,
“it eats my shuddering hands and toes.
Snow’s a jail that keeps me locked
inside the house to blow my ruddy nose!
And white - it’s lovely, I suppose,
but teaches me to ponder emptiness -
empty house, empty sky,
empty rooms that throb inside.”
                                                   “I bless,”
rejoined the man, “whatever made and kept
Holly Brightweed wintry-white in soul.
Will you wear white for me one day this yule,
And taking Winter’s color, salvage what She stole?”

Halfway down the shaggy ridge they stood.
Holly Brightweed turned and looked at him,
and guessed the versey riddle. Down they came
against the autumn breeze - the light fell dim,
the wind picked up, the silent trudging pair
thought of hallow Winter that was near.
They glimpsed aloft a tiny shiny moon;
They stopped, clasped hands, and called each other ‘dear’.

In the house where Holly and Richard live
a yellow kitchen cheers a hall of brown,
a library beckons with a scheme in green,
the parlor lamp warms red, where folks sit down.
There also hangs a fluted gown of white
Where in a soft-hued room they share the night.

05.09.08

Poem XV: Holly Brightweed and Richard Healing: Their Unspoken Thoughts

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Miscellaneous, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , at 12:22 am by AR

Holly: what a white-souled, grey-faced child.
Her feet shrink in this snow,
Her head hangs down beneath this heavy sky…
Oh that I knew why.

Richard: not distinguished, wealthy, wild,
Not anything I know.
Yet warmly does he speak to me - he makes
Of me his human kin.

Stooped in bluish pools of grief-bruised skin
Her eyes that once were suns
So feebly and so nobly fail to shine:
Not if she were mine.

And why should I not answer one made kin,
In kindness’ kind? The nuns
Do just so much. If further comes,
It comes. I’ll plan no more.

I longed for paths lit longwise from above;
But each step lights the next for humble Love.

Note: This is a new version of my most recent Holly Brightweed poem, formerly labeled XIII. There was another that should have come before this one, and I’ve just posted it here where this poem used to be in its first version. To see all the poems in their most current versions and in their correct orders, visit the ‘Holly Brightweed’ page linked in my sidebar.

Two poems are left to post and I’ve nearly finished editing them both, so this story should be wrapping up pretty quickly. I planned for ten poems but after extensive editing, rewriting, and shuffling about, there are only nine. Before I consider this cycle finished I may end up writing another that develops the winter = loneliness theme that became so important at the end of the cycle. It would, I think, have to be inserted between Holly’s conisderation of the cloister and her meeting with Richard (this poem.) Does anyone think that  would help the transition any? Or should I refrain from developing my character’s misery any further?

04.14.08

Poem XIV

Posted in Poems tagged , , , , , at 1:06 pm by AR

I

White wine wonders
red wine knows
(give me Blue for the morning rose)

Fly down, Angel
with your steel nose
plant
steel
seeds
in stuttering rows.

(The democrat hardly knows
what is going when it goes.)

II

To your parents, Last,
but your sons call you First;
First of your kind,
the tall, gray, Cursed,
Son of Machine
and Ungodly Thirst:

Of whom, pray, will the Judge demand:
Why did this boy die of thirst?

White Wind wanders
Red Poppy grows
And Blue Lords topple in helpless rows.

02.21.08

Poem XIII: Holly Brightweed’s Final Thought of Justin

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , , , , at 5:08 pm by AR

…then at last it slipped my gasping grasp
and shot down in that white abyss
where all things go that
Could Have Been,
but are not.

My hand still held that stiff clammy clasp
around the hole it left. How this -
this outcome? How? Flat
I sagged then,
hope hissed out.

Then He came - and spoke, as once before:
“Who grasps will lose. But loose to me…”
The loss done, duty
was consent.
I writhed and

Groaned, not in regret - but I was sore.
Then I spread my hand. Aloof, He
as at some beauty,
gazed, and sent
with His hand

A streak of something bright upward.
Heaven, that I falter faint toward,
In a new star glows.
What is it?
Well. He knows.

02.07.08

Poem XI: One Dryad to Another

Posted in Poems tagged , , , , , , , , at 4:51 am by AR

 I wrote this one year ago today: February 7th 2007. 

Come, neighbor;
Breathe my perfume and I will taste your fruit.
We shall not be divided, you and I,
Since our particular roots have stretched themselves and fingered down
Through sanded clay, through dank edged dirt,
And dipped with selfsame thirsty joy
In one selfsame,
Deliberate, Resplendent, Surgent Source.

02.05.08

Poem X: Psalm One in Verse

Posted in Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , at 1:19 pm by AR

In the tradition of Isaac Watts, this rhyme is rather brittle but expresses biblical piety. Also in his tradition it conflates New Testament gospel with Old Testament song…and in my case I threw in the ten commandments.

It’s a relic of my search for true religion, about the time immediately before discovering Orthodoxy. I think it’s apparent…or at least it is to me…how I was progressing toward the Church without knowing what it was I was coming to.

In line 12 I would probably say “make” rather than “mark” now.

 Will I have eyes to gaze on God,
May I feast with all his saints?
At his judgment will I stand,
Rest within his sacred gates?

I must not gladly look on sin
Nor with irreligion play,
Speak as those who scorn my God,
Nor with liars make my way

For God beholds the paths of men
Righteous men he warmly knows.
Those who make their way profane
Mark themselves Jehovah’s foes.

O Let me reverence God’s dear name,
Hate all lying, theft, and strife
Sacrilege and lust abhor
Honor those who gave me life

In whole then, let me worship God
True affection offering
Jesus Christ will teach me this,
Cleanse me of my heart’s failing

Then when heaven’s ways I’ve learned
Walking them by faith, while blind,
I shall travel there to walk
The ways of God in a new kind

01.28.08

Poem IX: After Justin’s Final Rejection, Holly Brightweed Contemplates Becoming a Nun; Her Mother Cautions Her

Posted in Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , at 5:53 pm by AR

(Mother)

“But not
to love,
who had
no thought
but love,
begot
of love?
It’s sad.”

(Holly)

“That I
who have
a heart
laid by
should salve
my smart
alone
and die
two ways
unknown?”

This high
I raise
my goal:
to hate
my life.
My soul
will mate
with strife.

And still
when all
is said,
I choose
so fine
a pain!
To lose
all mine
and gain
my fill
of All
instead!”

(Mother)

“But when
you’ve done
all this,
your All
may still
include
the men -
The One;
The Kiss;
the fall;
the thrill -
God’s good.”

01.12.08

Google Searches that Brought Me Readers - Mean Poems to say to Enemies

Posted in Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , , at 7:37 pm by AR

One of the informative and sometimes hilarious things about having a WordPress blog is that you get to see how people stumbled on your work.

 I get a lot of search-engine hits from people (no clue who they are) looking for tips on how to get their toddlers to eat well - apparently my veggie post is racking up some hits. I also get quite a few on learning to write, although I’m sad to see that not all of them are looking for what I have said. Too bad I couldn’t be more help.

 A little more disconcerting is people who are looking for directions about assembling some version of a platform - whether physical or political. The name of my blog has nothing to do with either of those things, alas for the poor searchers who were waylaid by siren-song of my fascinating title.

Occasionally I’ll see a search that led someone to my blog and think “how in the world did that come up?

One such was the recent search, “mean poems to say at enemies.” While I have never posted anything of the sort, I have to say that this kind of attention is not as discouraging as the platform searches. It just so happens that as a teenager I was rather adept at that particular form of raillery. Many are the poems I composed just to satisfy that itch of inferiority deposited in my heart by someone’s snubbing or mistreating me.

 None of the guys who inspired these poems (yes, all my girlhood enemies were of the male gender) ever actually saw them. However, despite never having the courage to actually repeat any of these masterpeices to their subjects’ faces, I know some of them will be just the thing for someone out there. I still treasure them as examples of how mature, how erudite, how forgiving I was as a girl. Indeed, I was a model of the judicious, temperate, and discreet interpersonal problem-solver.

 For your perusal, dear readers, I give you the “Poems for Non-Lovers”,  courtesy of the 14, 15, and 16 year old Me.

 Shane
The Pain
Down the Drain
He’s got soapsuds
In his brain.
Feed him gruel
Feed him grain
‘Cause he’s cruel
‘Cause he’s Shane.
Shane
The Pain
Down the Drain.
He’s got soapsuds
In his brain.

(As the perceptive reader can see, the above verse was composed by collecting as many rhymes as I could find for the name of the hapless Shane and turn them into negative statements of some sort or another. Brilliant, no? As I recall this particular boy’s offence was to declare my IQ equal to that of an ant’s. No doubt he has thought about my IQ every day since then, though we are long parted, and goes about telling stories about AK and her imbecility. I also recall that I was washing dishes as I composed this poem and I think the text reflects this rather nicely.)

I knew him, you see
This certain young man
And that is why I saw him
And ran.

In the plan of the ages
This tragedy is:
That I
Should be an acquaintance of his.

(This was created when I perceived the need to have an all-round rhyme for the many ill-tempered and injudicious boys surrounding me.)

(B

I never gave you a second look
Because one look was quite enough
For me to know that a look a day
Would be really, really tough.

(A

Handsome, with talents galore
He knows what he’s here for -
He thinks he was made to bring romance
To women’s lives with his every glance.
However, he never succeeds;
A fault or two is what he needs!

 (The above indicates a transition into a new type of versified insult - the “why I’m not interested in you” kind. The difference, of course, between me and my tormentors at this point was that they didn’t want me first. Everyone knows the person who started it is the real trouble-maker.)

(C

“Roses are red,
Violets are blue
Your hair is like french fries,
Your voice a kazoo.

(D)

“Violets are purple
Roses are pink
My dream boy wears (insert popular male scent),
While you merely stink.”

(While A and B were purely personal, I felt that I had discovered my true talent and began to create generalized verses for the use of females and males indiscriminately. C is adressed by a male to a female, D a retort to the male who had spoken C. Obviously, having reached a more sophisticated stage in my writing career, I began to turn the poems into a sort of dramatization of my own experience with the opposite gender.)

There you are, gentle reader. Or not so gentle. May they be as useful to you as they were to me, which is to say, not very.

01.07.08

Poem VIII: Afternoon World in Autumn

Posted in Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , at 6:54 pm by AR

Dearest Maggie,
This afternoon I drove into the country.
Now tell me -

From vast curves
Would you not deduce movement?
Thus the moody hills
Through which I rushed
Forward
Put me in mind of a great hand
Fluidly sculpting
Sideways.
Add against a translucent wall
Of golden sky
A swirling torrent of blackbirds
Upward;
This afternoon world
Is enough to make a girl dizzy.

***

Crime longs for accomplices,
So I looked to the clouds.

I lay in the grass,
Glad and idle,
And gazed on the heavy
Heavenly idyll.

I saw luxurious heaps -
A plump white woman at ease
Cruising a raft, a weighted slow craft
Stretching,
Swelling,
Rolling from back to belly
And back.

Ah, Maggie, let me tell you -
Her languid hand floated beside.
Silver fingertips
Brushed the tops of trembling trees…

This brushing of clouds and trees
Is a summer illusion -
For how high up,
Really,
Do the clouds billow?
Likewise, how far must they travel
Before watering the land?
Suddenly I saw the wind -
Which makes such mountains of mist
Turn over and over,
Driving them across the face of the earth -

At this point I decided to
Stand up and go do something.

Love,
AR

12.20.07

Poem VII: What Holly Brightweed Would Have Said to Justin

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , at 9:37 pm by AR

Love me, lad.
I dare not ask thee,
Would not task thee,
Yet I’m sad
Not to hear thee
Or be near thee;
Love me, lad.

Love me, lad -
Yet don’t fear me;
If you’re weary
Go, be glad,
Live without me.
Lie about thee,
I won’t, lad.

Nothing, lad,
Is what you owe me.
Proud to know thee,
To have had
some moments with thee
Bright, kind, witty,
Dearest lad!

But if, lad,
You’ve just not thought thee
To have sought me,
I’m mute, lad,
Yet I plead thee
Somewhat speed thee,
Do not bleed me.
I do need thee -
Love me, lad.

12.13.07

Poem VI: Justin, the Violinist, Dismisses Holly’s Interest

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , at 2:39 pm by AR

Holly had an eager glance tonight;
She probed my eyes, attended to my hands,
as if she thinks I know the master’s touch
to make her pour out some unearthly song
and almost paint the air with gold and light!
It’s true she’d play for me; almost demands
that she be played. This girl’s suspense is such
as tunes my violin strings taught and long.

A shame she’ll never know my mastery:
it’s just that candor cries, but doesn’t sell.
A louder violin won’t always do,
For worthier instruments have subtlety
and when the whole world sees your choice…ah well -
There’s nothing like a girl in love with you.

12.10.07

Poem IV; Holly Brightweed A Young Woman; Her Romantic Era

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 6:52 pm by AR

 

John Keats once prayed to touch a maiden’s wrist!
I merely pray that I’ll not first be kissed
(awkward as it must be) before an audience,
Nor by some hurried boy far too intense,
Nor by some practiced jerk who’ll grade my nerved embrace.
I pray to be proposed to with some grace,
to find some garment not-too-short, for first-night rite,
and that my future spouse won’t run his ship too tight.
How slowly, as my youthful years advance,
How surely have I ceased to dream romance.
 
Still, when the brisk young woman I’ve become
Stops to read what Keats prayed, also young -
The maiden with the rustling gown wakes inside,
Who’d interrupt the poet’s goldfinch-watching by the brook,
Blushing to have kept the unplanned tryst.
Were I to meet his startled look and lyric tongue,
Were he to lead me to the brook’s far side,
I think that leaving, I, like her, would turn and look
A few more times when he had brushed my wrist...
 
 
 
(referring to the following excerpt from an untitled poem 
by John Keats, romantic poet: 
published when he was about twenty-two years of age)
 
…Linger awhile upon some bending planks
That lean against a streamlet’s rushy banks
And watch intently Nature’s gentle doings:
They will be found softer than ring-dove’s cooings.
How silent comes the water round that bend;
not the minutest whisper does it send
To the o’erhanging sallows: blades of grass
Slowly across the chequered shadows pass.
Why, you might read two sonnets, ere they reach
To where they hurrying freshnesses aye preach
A natural sermon o’er their pebbly beds;
Where swarms of minnows show their little heads,
Staying their wavy bodies ‘gainst the streams,
To taste the luxury of sunny beams
Temper’d with coolness. How they ever wrestle
With their own sweet delight, and ever nestle
Their silver bellies on the pebbly sand.
If you but scantily hold out the hand,
That very instant not one will remain;
But turn your eye, and they are there again.
The ripples seem right glad to reach those cresses,
And cool themselves among the em’rald tresses;
The while they cool themselves, they freshness give,
And moisture, that the bowery green may live:
So keeping up an interchange of favours,
Like good men in the truth of their behaviours.
Sometimes goldfinches one by one will drop
From low hung branches; little space they stop;
But sip, and twitter, and their feathers sleek;
Then off at once as in a wanton freak:
Or perhaps, to show their black, and golden wings,
Pausing upon their yellow flutterings
Were I in such a place, I sure should pray
That naught less sweet, might call my thoughts away,
Than the soft rustle of a maiden’s gown
Fanning away the dandelion’s down;
Than the light music of her nimble toes
Patting against the sorrel as she goes.
How she would start, and blush, thus to be caught
Playing in all her innocence of thought.
O let me lead her gently o’er the brook,
Watch her half-smiling lips, and downward look;
O let me for one moment touch her wrist;
Let me one moment to her breathing list;
And as she leaves me may she often turn
Her fair eyes looking through her locks auburne…

Poem III - Holly Brightweed a Young Girl

Posted in Holly Brightweed, Poems tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , at 6:48 pm by AR

Holly Brightweed spread her arms and ran
out from the double hayloft doors, and yelled
“I’m riding home, Dad! See you there!”. She bent
and snatched the green knit scarf her basket held,
wound her neck, then seized her prostrate bike.
“Now down this frozen track in time” she said,
“befitting Gwenyth’s steed.” Both grace and use
she had in mounting; sternly bent her head,
made instant force against the pedal. Wind!
Her face rejoiced.
                           The road was straight and long;
Her father’s fields lay square on either side.
Halfway down she halted. “Something’s wrong.”
To left and right two lines of trees split fields.
To right she stared. “A fair enchantment, this”
the girl pronounced, and stilled her mount. “Gray sky,
gray fields, dark limbs of trees, and who should kiss
a thing so dead but White Queen Winter?” (Lines
she’d learned by heart.) The flakes fell silently.
She breathed.
                      Her father’s pick-up passed her then,
honking twice. She smiled and waved, and he
did too. His deep red hat reminded her
that Christmas-time was here when through her home
bright red would hang and drape and plop and cook.
“Evergreen dreams and gingerspice days and comb
your hair and sing his praise and presents lay
beneath the tree to Grandmother’s house we go…”
She sang a hodgepodge medley, riding on
past one more field.
                                Their house was now below,
glowing in a little dale. Holly stood
astride her bike, gazed down the craggy ridge.
Her dad was walking ‘cross the yard, and through
the window Holly saw before the ‘fridge
her mother pulling out a yellow bowl.
Dinner soon!
                      Holly Brightweed shoved
her feet against the ground and sailed the last
few yards down to her home. The bike she loved
she almost tossed inside the lean-to; then
she ran. In the house her parents kissed
and Holly, washing at the kitchen sink,
sang and splashed and sudsed and sighed and swished.

 

12.03.07

Poem II, Song of a Field at Night

Posted in Poems tagged , , , at 10:50 pm by AR

Of Kale Polli, she the long-betrothed
To One All-Loved Man -
I cannot speak in measure.
Her peace is all my pleasure.

Lumed in the final solar span
I saw her last, in countless tiny jewels clothed.
They were the waterdrops she lies amid,
For here, within an earthcloud, that man hid
Her, Kale Polli, his treasure.

I think, and shudder, once a day
(Since the loved man came and went)
Of dragons, and that six-legged Serpent
Who swore ago to shred her roasted flesh.
How her spires tremble, her high-hoven halls hush;
A song outsighs, “Oh Come, You All-Loved Man, and Stay…”

Shelter here, You Milky Lustrous Gem,
I am your Beloved’s land, O Kale Polli, I am true.
My clods are damp and ugly tubers sprout from them,
But every morning I aspire for you:
I breathe aloft a sheltering aerojewel cloud.
If he is yours, you are my reason to be proud.
For your sake, long ago, I was not left to burn.
Untroubled sleep: the All-Loved Man -
Having full unscrolled an Ancient Plan -
Will soon return.

12.02.07

Poem I: Harp, Broom, Reliquary

Posted in Poems tagged at 2:12 am by AR

… 

Naked came I to this room
Involuntary
Around me stand the harp and broom
And reliquary

Passersby perform the Parting Lie
Around my window
Berries blush their bluest in the shadow
Of the bottle-fly
Iward some daft light I know not darts between
The bulbous glow and foul insectuous sheen
And all that I can say is
This above and this below and this:

Why I know not nor to Whom
Naked came I to this room;
Naked fell I to the floor
No one bade me Shut The Door

..